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| Tuesday, February 26th, 2002 | | 10:17 pm |
| | Monday, February 25th, 2002 | | 3:31 pm |
I feel like Mr.Hanky.... :(
Well, I haven't been keeping up with my journal at all... I've been pretty busy lately and mainly for the good. Now is my only chance that I've gotten to sit down and acutally remember to update this, but that's because I have the 24 hour virus :( I've been puking the entire night and now I'm just weak. I would love to actually be able to write out all that's been going on in my life, but I don't have the strength to sit down and write everything out, but I just want everyone to know that life is going swell for me. Current Mood:  sick | | Wednesday, January 9th, 2002 | | 5:32 pm |
Beginnings....
Well, it's a new year, I ended the last one fighting and started this new one fighting, but that's all gonna stop. There have been too many hardships that I've come against and I've made a promise to myself to actually make this year count! I've started the new school semester and I think I'm going to do good and actually graduate by May. I made a promise to myself to do more things for myself, meet new and interesting people, and keep the ones that I love close to my heart. It's always good to have wishful thinking. I'm erasing all of the bad from last year and starting all over again, in hope that I become stronger than before. To all my friends, I love you guys very much and thank you for always being there for me and I'm sorry I haven't been there for you guys half as much as you guys have been there for me. I'm trying to become a better ALDO! Current Mood:  hopefulCurrent Music: Serena Paris - Look At Us Now! :) | | Friday, December 14th, 2001 | | 5:03 pm |
I hate it....You try to put so much effort to try to get everything back in order, and for some apparent reason it backfires on you. It's annoying that you put all your might and all your will and hope that some day, you'll live stress free.... but no, life always has to turn around and bite you in the ass. Why can't things just fall into place and I could keep on with my life happily??? NO, Life is just too stressful.... why even try? I can't stand SCHOOL! | | 3:24 am |
...On the rickter scale.
I just got back from Brothers, VERY interesting night.... But all in all, I had a blast. I just don't know how I'll be able to wake up at 7:00am to make it to school. ;) PEACE TO ALL! Current Mood:  quixoticCurrent Music: Gloria Gaynor - I Will Survive (Dance Remix) | | Sunday, December 9th, 2001 | | 10:30 pm |
Life is like a box of chocolate.....
The most unpredictable characteristic of every human being is their emotions...til this very day no one can truly understand how emotions work About 5 minutes ago, I was so stressed and ready to shoot whoever I came in contact with; now I'm the happiest man in the world! (exaggeration of course) Well, today was just really shitty, I didn't do anything. Tullos got into the tanning bed on Friday and fell asleep and after 30 minutes I went to check on her and woke her up, needless to say, she's burned like a lobster and today she felt really bad so we couldn't go out. Then my mom called and did her ritual "I didn't send you to Tallahassee to be gay" ordeal. Then I was just ready to KILL Heidi today, she did everything possible that would get on my nerves today. I tried to buy a coke from the laundry room and everything was sold out. Then earlier I tried to up-date this journal in a VERY lengthy descriptive entry and before I could up-date it I got logged off TWICE by Heidi. So, literary, on my last nerves I took a walk down Pensacola St. and decided to try to buy some cigarettes. I went to the Circle K and said "Do you guys carry Kamel Red Lights?" (knowing that if I chose that kind it'd be obvious I was a frequent smoker) and the guy said yes and asked for I.D. while getting them...so I said "Hold on, I'm gonna get it out of my car." and ran out. But if at first you don't succeed, try and try again. So I went to BP and did the same routine and the lady sold them to me.... so now EVERYTHING about today that bugged me has disappeared just because I passed as 18.... It's so weird how you can control your emotions. But I still could go for some weed..... Speaking of weed... I wonder how Andy is doing. I haven't talked to him at all, it's just weird. I hope he's doing ok. He seems to have good intentions, I hope everything for him gets better and back on track. Well, now I'm off to do some CATCH-UP homework of about 4 months worth.... :) Current Mood:  chipperCurrent Music: Gigi D'Agostino - I'll Fly With You | | Tuesday, December 4th, 2001 | | 3:25 pm |
Been pretty down lately, but trying to work things through. I hope everyone is ok, I'll up-date in some more detail later on. | | Monday, November 19th, 2001 | | 2:42 am |
Sad Winter Nights
It is official.... Andy and I are just friends, nothing more.... =( I hate it because I really did care about him and was willing to change.... but he only wants to be friends. =( So now, it's gonna be pretty weird, but for my own safety I have to decrease the times I hang out with him to get over him, which sucks.... =( But I WILL SURVIVE... this Tina Turner song fits PERFECT with me right now. Off to bed I go. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: Tina Turner - Missing You | | Sunday, November 18th, 2001 | | 4:00 pm |
Exciting Meteor Shower
well, I spent a good amount of the day yesterday with Andy..... it was good, I liked it..... God, I hope everything turns out alright between us. We stayed up with Jason to watch the over-rated meteor shower at 5:00am, but was let down when we saw couple of shooting stars at a time. Andy slept over last night and it was great, I was in heaven, I hope he realizes that I do want to make this work. For now I have to start doing on school work, because everyone has been worried about me, because I'm slacking big time in school and am pretty much in danger of failing. =( so I have to try to get everything back in order. Current Mood:  content | | Saturday, November 17th, 2001 | | 1:17 pm |
What a sensation...
well, the latest on my life.... In my last entry I talked about how I felt used. Well, Andy and I aren't together..... I did mess up that night, but I still thought we were together because the following day we talked about it and thought we'd fix it, but when I spilled my heart to him in the car he told me "Aldo, we broke up." So I messed up, because I still care for him a lot..... yeah, it's hard for me to trust him, but he's such a great guy, I did take for granted all the great stuff he has done for me and he wouldn't have cheated on me again, he did care for me and I didn't see it, so I want to apologize to him. But it might be too late, because I wanted to get back together with him, but he only wants to be "friends" for now. =( which sucks, because I did realize that I didn't give him his space and now that I understand that it might be too late. I wanna get back together with him, but he just wants to be friends and see what happens, the only thing that scares me is if he finds somebody he might like and then I'll lose him and I can't say anything because we're just "friends." =( But I guess it's my fault. I'm addicted to him. So I'm just scared to lose him. Life has been a bit of a drag lately, I just hope everything turns out good. As for the sensation.... I rolled with Andy and this guy from work last night.... it was weird, because things happened and I'd just sit there and watch it happen and all my emotions were going off the wall. I think the plan for tonight is hang out with Andy and friends. Current Mood:  indescribable | | Tuesday, November 13th, 2001 | | 12:18 am |
Why Do I Feel Used?
I feel extremely used.....Andy, had lots of shit happen to him this weekend because he really fucked up, so I let him stay with me this weekend and today, when I give him his space, he says he'll pass by my house later on in the night. it was already getting late so I paged him and he never called, until about 11:30pm I came on-line and he was on....he tried to get away with it, but I asked him where he was and he says....."some guy from on-line" whose name is Jay....now Jay lives less than 4 minutes away from my house. So should I feel used or no? | | Friday, November 2nd, 2001 | | 10:42 am |
When It Seems It Can't Get Worse...... IT DOES!
FUCK YOU!!!!! AAAAAHHH!!!!!!!! I REALLY HATE THIS FUCKING SHIT OF A LIFE THAT I HAVE!!!!! FUCK!!!! I'm honestly starting to think that I hate life.... I am starting to dread every oncoming day, because I know that something bad is going to happen..... last night I almost got killed 3 times, and I was thinking... it'll just end the pain. Why does life always have to fuck me over...not once, not twice..... but a billion times in just ONE FUCKING DAY!!!!! =( Current Mood:  frustrated | | 10:02 am |
Heartache Came To Visit Me....
Life as we know it, has changed to a huge ball of stress. I don't understand how the people that are the closest to you are the ones that can conjure up the most pain. For example, right now, I'm supposed to be in school, learning, and worrying about the minutest problems possible, instead I'm STILL home because my ride never came, my siste..... HEIDI, who has a car left me here, without my phone line, so I nigger-rigged the entire house just so I could get on-line.... and now I'm gonna have to walk to school after lunch..... JOY for me!!!! I honestly haven't felt happy in a LONG time and it's a said thing to say. Current Mood: stressedCurrent Music: Buzzing of the Computer | | Friday, October 12th, 2001 | | 3:18 pm |
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I don't know what's wrong with me..... there's something wrong with me.... I've been EXTREMELY depressed..... it's scaring me..... I've been waiting for a specific person to comment on my journal.....but nobody has =( I'm scared. Current Mood:  depressed | | Thursday, October 11th, 2001 | | 3:42 pm |
"Why Are You Such a Worry-Wort?"
Well, I just got home from school.... I'm sweaty....(so I should take a shower...) While I was walking home I was doing drag to "I Want You To Need Me." I've decided that if there is still Amateur Drag at Brothers when I turn 18, I might try to do drag..... it'd be fun... AND I'd get money!!!! $$$$$$ I've still been checking up on the thing that I said I read about early and to my dismay no advancements yet. As for the whole Andy situation..... I don't know what's wrong with him..... I know there's something up, but he doesn't wanna talk....so whatever... once again, don't want stress in my life right now.... don't need it, don't want it, won't get it! So now I'm gonna take a shower! I'm off! Current Mood: indescribableCurrent Music: Celine Dion - I Want You To Need Me | | Wednesday, October 10th, 2001 | | 11:55 pm |
When it rains..... IT POURS....
I have honestly got to say that today has been one of the most stressful days that I have experienced. First off, earlier this week I read something and it intrigued me, so I'm gonna keep on checking up on that. Also an "off and on" friend from miami...her brother died this past weekend and it just totally shocked me and I've been trying to look on the bright side of life, because just the fact that I knew him and he died.... makes me be thankful for life, but with this day it's been hard. Back to my day. I got my hair cut and colored (that's a plus) but it took me forever to get it. I had to walk home today which sucked. Andy's car is fucked-up so I didn't get to see him.... then of course to add more stress Heidi walks in right on que. "Aldo you need to get a job in the next 3 days!" Then she tells me my mom is coming up this weekend and I'll get to "deal with her." To get away from that stress I went out to Outback with Tullos and after Outback we went to Brothers for a little bit and once again, I felt like shit..... Everyone was just looking at me because they all know I screwed Tullos over. =( I'm sorry, Tullos, I honestly fucked up. Then when I got home Heidi leaves me with the pleasure of picking up dog feces in my room.....but wait.... guess who's not home when I get home..... OF COURSE HEIDI! Well now I just got finished talking to Andy on the phone, I was just annoyed at the fact that he just wanted to hang up already and I still wanted to talk, but hey no quarrels equals....no drama, which equals.....no stress.... and that's the main goal that I'm going for right now. Current Mood: crappyCurrent Music: Craig David - Can You Feel Me Here | | Monday, October 8th, 2001 | | 12:26 am |
Letting Go Of All I Ever Knew....
Just recently life has been kind of a haze to me.... Things just aren't clear to me.... everything is a mess and I've just come to a crashing result.... Well today was my 2 month anniversary with Andy.... it wasn't that exciting, but hey it was a 2 month anniversary.... The only thing that bothered me is that Andy didn't seem to have too much interest in it....Well, not as much as I did, because I haven't had a 2 month anniversary he has..... but oh well.... I've kinda come to the assumption that I ask too much from life.... I have so much high expectations that I get shattered when I realize that I'm just dreaming. So I'm gonna have to stop wishing for perfect lives and live in the one that I'm in now. Perfect example is meeting Tullos again, I thought it was going to be a magical wonderful, lost friends meeting again ordeal, and i felt like shit. But whatever I'm just hoping everything at least turns decent. I'm going to have to stop living in the clouds and just settle on the ground. I'm gonna try to start off again tomorrow and hope for the best. Life will be ok. | | Monday, October 1st, 2001 | | 3:35 pm |
Loss Of Innocence
what's better cheating or lying??? Isn't wonderful when you find out your boyfriend has cheated on you???? or maybe it's better to see when he blatanly lies to your face??? The World Is Filled With Lying People Who Only Want THEIR DAILY FUCK" <----that is the little rememberance I have of one of the quotes in a certain malicious person's journal. If you guys don't catch on.... MIKULFSU FUCKED MY BOYFRIEND ANDY!!! Current Mood: enragedCurrent Music: Cyndie Lauper - Girls Just Wanna Have One | | Tuesday, September 25th, 2001 | | 3:27 pm |
Utter Bliss....
Yesterday, I had one of the best days I have ever had in a long time. Thank you Andy for such a magical night. | | Monday, September 24th, 2001 | | 4:07 pm |
Andy's here!!!! YEY!!!!! my baby is here... and we're off to frolic around the town in our cute outfits!!!! |
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